bad day @ work

I'm having a really bad day. Last night I had some screw-ups at work. I thought I had sorted it all out by the time I went to bed and the plan for today was to forget about the problems from last night and plow ahead. Unfortunately, this was not the case. It turns out that all the work I did last night has to be thrown into the trash. As soon as I came to this realization, I wanted to slip out of my chair onto the carpet, roll into the fetal position, close my eyes and dream that I was out of this stuffy, loud production office and rollarblading to the beach with the sun in my face. It's hard when these things happen because working for myself means that messing up translates into lost time and $MONEY$ both of which I HATE to lose.

I'm in such a terrible mood right now. I think I'll go take a shower and wash my hair. When I’m feeling like this I have to stop myself from hating my customers for making me work so hard. It’s easy to get resentful. That just goes to show how irrational that thought is since it is my beloved customers who make my dream business a reality.

Now, if this next production run goes to shit, I’m really going to scream.

P.S. When you’re having a bad day, you’re really having a bad day. After I finished writing the above blog post, I clicked to publish it and when I went to view the blog my heart stopped and I broke out into a sweat (not an exaggeration). Why? The blog I posted to was my WORK blog. And of all postings, it’s one that’s complaining about work. I frantically clicked around looking for the delete button and immediately after I successfully deleted it, I felt a pang of sadness. I liked that post and I wanted it. Worst of all, I realized that I wasted MORE time since I got nothing out of the time I spent to write it. Kill me now. I vented to my husband and then sat down and wrote it again. That wasn’t so bad. This writing thing really makes me feel better. I don't particularly enjoy writing the same thing twice but it's better than curling up in the fetal position. I’m ready for that shower now…

Roz Savage and the Pacific

The last post regarding podcasts makes me want to mention Roz Savage (www.rozsavage.com). Roz is a woman that is literally rowing across the Pacific right now... I mean, RIGHT NOW. Think about it. A woman in a row boat with no land in sight between the California coast and Hawaii. Roz writes in a blog almost every day and I have been keeping up with her since she left the Golden Gate bridge. I also listen to her podcast updates on "Roz Rows the Pacific". I find out whether the gale force winds on the ocean have died down enough for her to get back out on the deck to row. I look at her progress going south west to see whether she has actually been drifting backwards. I check to see whether her water-maker has started to work again after the electronic components were flooded with sea water. The amazing thing is that it feels like she's been out there for so long yet she still has more than 2 months more to go. I really admire her discipline, determination and drive. To me, her trip across the ocean in a row boat would be a very effective form of torture. It would be a matter of survival rather than adventure. I don't know if I would be more scared of the dark deep ocean tossing me around like a rubber ducky or being completely alone for that many hours, days and nights. Or, maybe I just can't handle the thought of not having icecream for such a long stretch of time.
Go Roz!